Payne

its real pain. not the kind of pain you feel when you lose someone you love. we are conscious of death. we understand. it happens. no, this is pain like no other. the pain felt when you realize something of the nature of people. the pain felt when you realize something of the nature of the world. this is real pain. something inside breaks. yet another hope that everything will be o.k. is destroyed. i never realized it before but now i see that this happens on some level for everyone. it is at this moment that we stop playing to win. from now on we play not to lose.